I've been blogging pretty inconsistently for the past few weeks... sometimes it's by choice, sometimes it's by exhaustion, sometimes I just freaking forget. Like the last couple of days...
I almost forgot today, but figuring it is only just Tuesday over in good old America, where the lovely Amber resides, I am squeezing in a HIOT post.
TODAY IT'S OKAY:
To be sewing late at night. I have gone literally MONTHS without sewing, and I realised today that this is a good part of the funk hanging over my head.
To spend a little time wallowing in my funk. I just wanted to shout at someone for the last few days, and mainly I've wanted to shout at WonderMan.
To not feel bad about shouting at him because everything I said was perfectly valid, even if I did exagerate a teeny bit.
Okay a lot.
To want to move and not want to move at the same time. I don't want to be here, but I don't have the energy for the move.
To be excruciatingly anxious about having to make new friends once we do move.
To be a little freaked out about what may be coming in the near future, and how I will cope with it all.
And to be determined to do what it takes anyway.
To be deliciously excited about a friendship lost, that has been found again in the last few days. It means this person is meant to be a part of my life.
To wonder what the hell happened to my cleaner. After a day when she had a sick child, and a day I was going away for the weekend, she just hasn't called me back or turned up as I thought we agreed.
To not care because I'm leaving and I will damn well do it myself until then... I've been doing it this long so it shouldn't kill me. I hope.
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Also linked to Diary of a SAHM for IBOT
I've been sewing into the night as well, but that's because I set myself an impossible goal of making my girls quilts for Christmas, and I'm running out of time!
ReplyDeleteIt is good fun though :)
When I get overwhelmed, I end up in a funk. Like I am now, having outpatient surgery today, not having my house decorated, and having bronchitis. But this too shall pass.
ReplyDeleteI've had the same problem when it comes to blogging over the last few weeks... life has been just too damned busy for me to even THINK about it.
ReplyDeleteThat and I'm feeling a little depressed that the sewing machine hubby bought me for my birthday is still sitting under my desk, still sealed inside it's box :(
@Jess Wow! Quilts are not my forte... I've told myself I need to get to mums age to have the patience (although sometimes she doesn't either!) I've been making dresses and things :)
ReplyDelete@ArtyMarti I hope it passes soon for you! Sounds like you deserve a funk right now.
@Chantelle - mine has been sitting gathering dust for months so I know how it feels. But I am squeezing in a little bit here and there now :) Hopefully you can have a play with your new machine asap!
Making new friends is hard for me since I'm pretty shy. I can't just walk up to someone and start talking.
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